"I'll tell you what I'm all about man,"
said Homeless Jack. "I'm about life. I love life. I honor life. I respect
life. Now, that doesn't mean that I think all life is the same or that I should
lift up other sorts of life above my own kind of life. But, I see life as a transformation
of so-called lifeless minerals into a higher form. It's part of the big spinning
and the big struggle, man. I don't mean that minerals are dead, because so long
as they have atoms moving about, they are not dead in the precise sense of the
term, at least in my book. Movement is life. Total non-movement is death. I'm
also about struggle. Minerals struggle to be life and life struggles to be higher
life. It does this blindly and instinctually.
"Or, maybe we should think of it as though nature
has thrown us out in the pond of existence and told us to sink or swim. The metaphors
come unbidden, man. Maybe we can think of evolution as though it's an escalator.
It's taken us up to the next floor, but now it won't take us any higher. Now we
have to find the stairs and start climbing them. That's where I want to go, man.
I want to go up. But, here's the paradox in all this. To go up, we must go down."
"Yeah, I see it. So what?" I replied.
what are some people doing to try to go up--to improve the species? They're saying
that we need to breed more carefully so that we'll improve. Man, that's a crock
in our day. And, improve the species? All humans? Whites are an improvement of
the species already and look at us, we're dying off because there aren't enough
of us. We're the ones who have split off from the rest of the species and we're
the ones who are on the way to being a new species, if we do things right. If
we do things wrong, then we're not going to move higher and we'll only fall lower.
Maybe when white life is all over the place we can start being picky about breeding
better whites, but for right now, any whites will do just fine, thank you.
"The ones who think they can breed just a few
and improve the race are dreaming. Their limited breeding will lead no where.
It never has. Don't misunderstand me on this. If we could breed many of the best
and brightest among us and end up with improved children we'd be better off. The
problem is that those who think about breeding up that way always get too damn
selective and often don't understand what up really means anyway. I'll take the
old white working class families with a dozen average I.Q. kids each, over a ten
yuppie white families with a single above average I.Q. kid each, any day of the
like those flies and maggots, except we've forgotten the real purpose of life.
Instead of eating so we can survive to breed, and so we'll grow and expand by
making more of ourselves; instead of spreading our genes as far as possible through
more of us, we just eat and eat and only get fat and then we die. Crappy wasted
lives. We've short circuited ourselves. We've gotten arrogant and we've started
thinking that we're above the rest of nature so we've removed ourselves from nature.
Some people understand what I'm saying, man, without knowing they understand.
Farmers usually understand even though they may not be able to put it in words
as I'm doing. People in slums understand. Life is dirty and chaotic, man. If you
try to make it clean and orderly, you kill it.
what about you, Jack? I don't mean to be rude, but you seem to be doing pretty
meaningless things yourself." I said.
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